The fright

Her face was glowing in that peach cotton t-shirt. The garment was beautifully complementing her pale white complexion. Lips that looked very much like the petals from light colored purple rose were tightly stuck together. The curled lashes were quivering frequently. The soberness in the eyes was augmented by the kohl with a tinge of brown worn in the outer half portion of lower eye lids. Her eyes appeared larger than usual. The nose, slightly concave in form was reddened at its tip even in such scorching heat of mid- May. She had finely done small forehead that looked the same every time. Even her frequently changing coiffures could do nothing to it. Her cheeks appeared flattened that day, quite surprisingly, causing the cheek bones to appear sharp and haughty. And the feeling that emanated from her visage at that moment was somewhat treacly, somewhat inert, a bit timid, a bit rigid. Though the emotions reflected were vague and hard to decode, her countenance distinctly denoted the utmost discomfort she was enduring at the moment. She had never even imagined that the sudden stroke of realization would be so intensely constrained; the heaviness was outweighing her own weight.

He stood there in front of her. He was sweating arduously. The blue shirt he had worn was wet severely under the armpits. The sweat droplets were shining brightly in his forehead. Even the eyes were sweating, but from the fire that was burning inside. She had grown numb and he had cultivated enough sensitivity. She was hard and brittle and he was as pliant as the finely kneaded dough. He was discomposed and she knew no any composure. He was continuously draining through his eyes and she was diabolically dehydrated within an instant. The pain was persistent, adamant not to depart for they both lack the idea on how to resolve, how to dissolve; reiterate to the past or set a new itinerary. She was petrified all at once by the shocking surprise her own self granted her. It never occurred to her that someday, sometime she would be deceived by her own tender core of heart, by her own belonging in a manner as such. There was no any hint of forerunner to signify the arrival of such painful deceit. I tell you, it was all of a sudden she felt for him, she fell for him. All those years, they had remained just the friends, just good friends. She had never felt any sort of awkwardness to do any sort of awkward things in his presence. She laughed widely, she cried severely, she quarreled whole heartedly even though he might be around her. She cared not a bit about how she looked and how he looked while being together. Moreover, she would grow even more lackadaisical in his company. There was absolutely no desire in her to charm him, to propel him, to attract him. His killing smile never succeeded to threaten her. She however, found his chiseled frame inordinate but not exceptional. She had seen him grow from a child to a guy but never cared about how handsome and masculine he had grown. Withal, it wasn't the case with him. He had witnessed her growth from a sweet darling doll to a beautiful and majestic diva. And pondered about how wonderful the courses of change had been. He had equally been amazed by her juvenile laughter that showed off all the teeth except the frontal upper two which were plucked at that time as he is now amazed to see her wide youthful smile showcasing the pearly white teeth. He loved it when she would get cozy in his company. He admired her kind gestures, her cool and easy postures, her sympathetic and empathetic heart and a mind that was sharp and shrewd but rarely manifested those qualities. He would get mesmerized on listening to her low soft voice. Her wishes were his commands and her dreams were his desires. She was his muse. And he loved her, but he didn't realized nor there occurred any obligation to have realized.

She would share with him, with Shagun, the stories of her crushes, about how she was infatuated, how she felt when walking along with her guy, how madly she loved him when he stared at her eyes and did nothing and so on and on. He would listen to her and would smile but only the god knew how much did he meant that. Also the accounts of her heart-breaks, of the betrayals she incurred, of the torments she endured never hid from him. She told him all and everything. And her shrieks caused him heart sore and astoundingly, it would be the lady herself who would mitigate the situation. She knew that he loved her but in a sense she would want him to. He knew that she loved her, may or may not be in a sense he would like her to. He was uncertain of what she meant to him. But all of a sudden, everything at once, things altered; feelings evolved manifesting themselves violently. Without any anticipation, the time came when the awareness occurred. Life appeared way more easier in the realm of unconscious. The moment came when she was to bid him adieu. He was leaving for The United states in the course of his education. And he had came to see her the last time before he left when the truth bizarrely unfolded itself before them. Both acknowledged that confounded state. Both exhibited the confusions silently. Both confessed the turbulence, the shudder, the truth in their own unique ways.

Her benumbed self started to rivet around. Her eyes shut themselves up. Clear images of the infidelities she was forced to accept casted on her mind. She empathized with her past self that was badly cheated upon. She felt pity at her own when her generous self, her virtuous being was taken for granted. She remembered the face of her shy and timid lover that had turn hard and condescending by the treatment of her passionate love. She remembered the vows she took in front of her own self when her love was reprehended for lust. The words she had given to herself that she would never ever fall for anyone again, began to cast clearly in her mind. Her self was just began to melt when it turned resolute all again.

She turned abruptly and walked slowly without turning to look back at him draining the memories out that had suddenly begun to inundate her..